Wednesday, 7 February 2018


another actually blog about me me me... have to get some stuff out of my chest

I have much to research and have found some great videos recently, mainly watching when everyone is sleeping. Been awake for a few nights now and I am also feeling under the weather, my head aches and I feel unfocused.

I have my book project that needs finishing, I am hoping to have it ready before the baby comes, but maybe not. I have not gained as much support as I wanted.

I feel that I need to research more about natural birth and vbac, but another side of me just tells me to go with the flow and follow my body and my instincts.

I do feel angry and pissed off with the NHS. There is no care in the system, we are nothing but numbers to be pushed around.

Maybe I am taking on too much and the wrong time. I feel like doing more but my body is asking for rest. and so its my mind

I felt very emotional for a few days, in my mind, working throw old emotions and crying for little reason. all the feelings of being rejected and pushed aside, every time I felt out of control and that authority has failed me and will always do so. That my loved ones will failed me.

I know is important to acknowledge how I feel and release the emotion, let it flow. But at times I wonder with all this over thinking the past is generating manifestations in my life.

I feel that instead of overthinking I should just let it go, flow flow flow. forgive and let go
move on, yes, I have been in situations that were not so easy to deal with, but I did, I dealt with it, now I have to move on, let my mind be quiet and let go of the emotions I been holding on to for such a long time

forgive myself, forgive others and ask for forgiveness

I always expect people to, somehow, try to overpower me and my will. I expect it so I manifest the situations. I do not need that program anymore, whatever function it once had, it is no longer wanted or needed.

Birth is an opportunity for healing. the process is already here, i am already the process itself. I dont need to think about it, i have to be here and now in this moment and put my attention on the now.

I embrace God and the light that comes for all life
I trust in God and know that there is always a higher plan and purpose to all events in life
I am not rejected or forgotten by the Divine
The Divine resides within me and has always been with me
I am not separated from the Source, I am a integral part of the Source

I already Know, I am
I never stopped being in the first place
I see the Divine in others, I embrace others as they are, and it is beautiful

rest, allow the mind to quiet down and embrace each moment and feeling

Tuesday, 30 January 2018

Gestational Diabetes

ALL women have increased insulin resistance in pregnancy.

NICE guidelines - Recommendations: 1.4 Intrapartum care - Timing and mode of birth 1.4.6
1.4.6Diabetes should not in itself be considered a contraindication to attempting vaginal birth after a previous caesarean section. [2008]

gestational diabetes diagnosis itself is not a reason to be advised to have a caesarean section.

According to the current NICE guidelines induction (or elective caesarean section) should only be considered before 40+6 weeks for women with gestational diabetes if there are maternal or fetal complications.
Oral Glucose Testing

Borderline Results

Another concern is that drinking 100g of sugar drink is not like real life, and it is more important how your body responds to everyday, real-life conditions. Because sugar (or glucola) is a simple carbohydrate and there is no protein or fat to help slow its absorption, it will produce the most extreme reaction and test your insulin capabilities more. 100g of other carbs, on the other hand, might be absorbed differently, especially if protein or fat is eaten with it.

colostrum harvesting

Sunday, 28 January 2018

Islam and Circumcision

It is painful, risky, often deforming, sexually diminishing and confers no health benefits.

The Qur'an does not mention circumcision

Misconceptions about circumcision of children in Islam

The Prophet Muhammad was NOT circumcised
Another reason given is "to be like Muhammad, who was 'born circumcised'". This can easily be refuted: if the Prophet was born without a foreskin (aposthetic), he was not circumcised, and that is the way to be like him.

Muslims Against the Circumcision of Children (MACC) facebook page

Is circumcision compulsory in Islam? The simple answer is NO!
The Quran has no mention of circumcision. It makes no request for circumcision of men or women. In numerous verses of the Qur'an, Allah tells us that he has created everything, including human beings, in the most perfect form. In the following verse, Allah explicitly states this with regards to the human creation:

Imam Abu Hanifa and Imam Malik consider circumcision to be recommended but not obligatory. 
This means that if done, its doer is rewarded by God, and if not done, there is no punishment or reward

Changing the body is religiously forbidden

All actions that would deface or maim the body are forbidden in Islam. The body must remain in its original form unless specific permission is given from the Creator to make a change. Any change in the original creation of the body is considered one of the great sins in Islam. When Shaitân (Satan) was dismissed from Paradise, he threatened that he would urge the human beings to make changes in their own bodies